Goodbye.

I hate this feeling. This empty, tired feeling. I hate having to do things just because I’m expected to do things. Can’t I be the irresponsible one for a change? Why am I always the person who has to go and get the damn job done? Or shift things around so that I’m always there when the going gets tough?

When does it start becoming ‘me’ time? I don’t ask for much. Just a day of irresponsibility. Maybe a day of just spending time with someone important to me. To just lie in bed and hold someone.

But the someones don't want to be held.

Conversely, I’d probably end up feeling bad about it, and end up fulfilling obligations anyway.

I’m whinging, I know. But I could really use a hug right now.

I'm so tired of people saying goodbye.